if you just realize. [we'd be perfect for each other]

Tommorrow is graduation. My little brother is graduating highschool 45 minutes away, and my older sister is graduating college right up the street from where I currently live. Two important graduations on the same day, and that’s not even what has lead me to post. No, it’s the fact that one of my best friends is graduating college tommorrow, and after a year of hanging out, I still haven’t told him how I really feel about him. I haven’t told him that his cheesy jokes are the only thing that can make me smile when I’m mad. I haven’t told him how his smile literally melts my heart. Or how when I hug him I don’t want to let go. I haven’t told him how I secretly love when he’s mean and picks on me. Why? Well, partly due, is to the fact that he has a girlfriend. They’ve been together for over a year now. What I want to tell him is that she can never care for him the way I do. I’m thinking “Melissa Etheridge-Like the Way I Do,” that was pretty much my anthem all year long. Anyway, they don’t even seem to really like each other. It’s been over a year and he hasn’t said I love you. Eh, are we staying in the relationship out of habit? The main reason I won’t tell him, is the universal, “I don’t want to ruin the friendship” answer. Uh, yeah. Duh! He’s moving three hours away. Road trips are in the planner. If I were to confess my feelings, there would be no “keeping in touch,” and I would rather go on in life wondering what could’ve been, than not having him in my life at all. Not to mention there’s this guy I’m kind of seeing…but doesn’t it count if I say I would give him up for the bff?